Then kijiji took me into it's grasp.....
Okay I've escaped the grasps of dreaming on kijiji, onto the blog post
My weeks have toned down a bit. I haven't been out to riding.... that's a long story, not for this blog entry. But it has freed up more time for editing and for cleaning my room which I must admit gets into a disaster more times then I'd like it to. This weekend was pretty busy, Chris' cousin got married so we had a BBQ friday night where we got to hang out with a lot of his family. A lot of kids under 14, it was super busy trying to help out and entertain kids and clean up the juice the babies kept spilling everywhere. Then Saturday morning we got recruited to help set up the wedding venue. That was a task and a half, thankfully there were quite a few people there to help. I kinda like doing that kind of stuff, hopefully one day I'll get married so now with the wedding I was just in and helping out with this one it gives me more of an idea what I want and what to expect and what I don't want. Saturday was also busy because you have to be here, then there, then wait for 2 hours, then rush here because someone forgot something. But it was a beautiful wedding and I got a few pictures that I really like. I'm still fighting with my flash, it's just not working how I want it to. We are speaking different languages to one another :/
So for pictures we went to a park that I have shot at before. Its really nice. I kinda felt like I was stepping on the other photographers feet but the family was kind of not listening and with all the little kids I wanted to get it as fast as possible because they were getting tired. So I started lining up extended family that wanted their individual families done. More or less I was recruited by Chris' aunt. Which i was more then game for. Natural light portraits are what I like to do most. I really like the pictures and how they came out.
From there I'm going to jump to the fact I want to write my perspective of being behind the camera. Most of the times I am nervous as all hell. I get butterflies before every session I go to. Sometimes I even feel sick to the point where I have to talk to myself and be like okay Megan just calm down it'll be okay. Why am I nervous you ask; well I have so many things running though my head; remeber the props? what happens if it rains? what are they going to wear? will it flatter them? I really hope I won't have to photoshop a lot, what happens if they hate all the photos I take?
that ones a big one, always weighs my conscious down. What happens if they hate all the photos I take. Well seriously then what? Rebook? I think that's my biggest thing that gets me from doing weddings. I am so nervous something will go wrong and the entire thing will be shot. Like as in not turn out. Then what?! Can't redo it. Then your the bad guy. I don't want to be the bad guy.
I also sometimes get stuck in the common poses and compositions that I turn my creative side off. When I go back to edit I'm like ugh I could have been so much more creative then that. I think my nervousness shuts me down. More so just part of my brain. But in my defense when photographing say a couple, if you let them move together instead of trying to pose them their faces show it all. If you pose them their faces look contorted and not normal. You let the couple have an intimate conversation and you just snap away, ya you might have the odd one where the lips look weird from talking but you get relaxed faces and genuine smiles and such.
To sum it up I am perma scared everyone will hate my photos. I judge myself so much already :/ I seriously think I under value myself all the time.
Hats (okay I know like I've said before this blog is all over the place and I can now see it's getting long too....)(One day I shall learn to make it flow better)
anyways, yes, hats
my steam to write abut hats has fled me. And no I am not talking regular hats. I actually don't wear hats that often. I do a bunch of different roles though and thats where this was supposed to be going. But instead I thought you'd like photos.
So here's the photos
See the house thing in the back left side.. ya I walked there in the mud and through the junk yard in my flip flops. No it wasn't my original idea. I went to bucks knowing I didn't have to walk through the yard to get to the office. No luck in the parts I needed, so the girl gave me a number to the other salvage yard. After trying to get them to answer for 20 minutes (line always busy) I took a jaunt out there to find I had to walk through their yard to get to the office. :| Normally I dress for this occasion... alas I didn't have my steels or rubber boots nor my coveralls. But my treacherous walk wasn't for nothing, the guy thinks he has the parts I want... just in the back of the lot. Oh and did I forget to mention my tetanus shot ran out in December :/ (also a side not I did not know it was tet-anus i say it tetnus ... well learned another new thing today)
Selfie... phone camera is sucking :/
Photoshoot I got to do last weekend. This little guy was stoked to have a cake to smash all to himself
Such a freaken cutie!
