Broke Free!

So I decided to give myself a day off yesterday and went out snowboarding with Rachel to Nakiska. Overall it was an awesome day, the weather was great, food was good, but the snow was hard. The only other time I have ridden in the mountains is at Sunshine. Sunshine was AWESOME, besides the fact is was snowing almost to hard for us to see down the hill. But the powder was so cool, this is coming from a Sask girl how has never boarded on powder before, so that experience was wicked. AT Nakiska it felt almost all man made snow again, it was icyer then Sunshine and hurt wayyyy more when you bit it. The runs were long and the chair lift was fast though, I would totally go there again just because it is so close.

Besides that not much else is new, kickboxing got cancelled so one of the guys in the class has stepped up and is now teaching us Mai Taui. So thats pretty cool. It's just us students running the class.

Went out with the girls for a bit on St. Patricks day (the friday before)

Chris and I have this conversation just abut daily lol. Coffee is gross

Studying for the test and my mind is stuck on summer mode. All I could think of was Supra's

Incentive spirometry testing in lab

Found this picture online. I want to make that so bad! Future house decorations

Smashed another plate :( .... maybe I'm greek

Another find online. Looks so comfy

My healthy supper the other night. Chicken, cauliflower, and asparagus

Some kids at the hill were so little. This guy had just turned 2. 

So beautiful out!

Choices

Left or right? Up or down? To go or not to go?

Everything in life is a choice. I used to get really up tight about choices I made and other were making around me and get upset and angry if they didn't go with how I wanted them to. I can honestly say I used to be super up tight and a control freak. One day I realized this was happening... and I didn't like who that made me. Now I try my hardest to not be like that again. I realize that everyone has their own decision making process, and plans change. Go with the flow, the more you fight it the more tired you get and the greater chance you might not be able to keep your head above water.

In conclusion; chill out, relax, enjoy life as much as you can. Yes it will get stressful an down at times. But then think of your family, awesome friends, and the great times ahead.

Everyone should go to this!

Doing upper cuts in boxing can hurt :( booo. Still can't put full weight on my wrist yet

It was beautiful in Calgary this past week.... WAS being the key word

Killed a forest practically printing notes for class :(

Checked out this place tonight... wasn't to bad. Not really my scene though...

Time Passes

So it's been a week since my grandma passed away. I flew to Saskatoon Thursday morning and from the time I landed till late saturday night I had been in go go go mode. I did manage to sneak a bit of me time in there, like seeing my best friend for a little bit, relaxing from the chaos at the dog park with one of my favorite dogs as well as went for a swim with the cousins. Other then that my week was crap. Don't get me wrong I loved seeing my family, it's been a loooong time since we've all been together, but the circumstances could have been better.

Hardest and roughest part of the time in Saskatoon was the viewing. Now I know i'm going the screw up the names of the services and such because my mind was mostly in a numb state and I just went where people told me to go and did what people told me to do. The viewing was thursday night, now I had thought there wasn't going to be a viewing so I was surprised to see the casket there. I was also really upset at the fact that my dad and Chris couldn't be there (they had to work) so it was just my mom and I..... I was thinking 'sure put the two most upset people together without our other halfs to hold us up.' But I have to say we did fairly well and the rest of the family really helped out.

I really hate leaving school or breaking up my schedule though. Last week before I left to Saskatoon was hell. Working with family to get flights booked, rental cars, plans of who has to be where. As well as talking to faculty and trying to keep up with regular work. I also fought with my scanner to copy the pages out of the texts that I needed.

Now that I'm back at school it feels like everything is twice as heavy, thankfully the faculty have helped me out and were able to move my mid term to friday. Yes that helps in the short term but not in the long term, it just backs everything up. I'm going to keep trying to keep my head above water

This is my grandma, Grandma Rose. 

There was a memory board at her funeral. This is one of the pictures on there. My grandma making with me as a small child.

My cousin, Grandma, and me

This is my grandma's locket. Inside is a picture of her and of one of her brothers Rudy. I treasure it

In Saskatoon this was the rental vehicle my om and I shared. It really wasn't that bad... besides the three knobs in centre dash :/

One of the things that ultimately relaxes me is taking a dog for a walk in the off leash dog park. We did just about 3km in just under an hour. I use the program 'My Tracks' to track where we walk. We were all over the place, in and out of the woods, along the frozen river, everywhere!

My youngest second cousin, Brooklyn. She is so adorable!

During family supper I found her trying on people shoes. Her face is priceless.

My mom and I went to the dollar store and picked up some activities for the kids to do during family supper.

One of my cousins, working to get her toy out of the rock

Another cousin working away at his

Losing someone

I wrote this shortly after it all happened, it's now been two days. I wanted to wait until the rest of my family found out.


It was only an hour ago I learnt of my grandmothers death. She passed away today. I accept that she was old and it had been years since she was actually herself. While I lived in Saskatoon I visited her, probably not as often as I should have. But there was many a times I would show up and feed her supper or lunch, she wasn't the same. At first it was really hard to overcome the fact that the once; happy-go-lucky grandmother of mine was now unable to remember to swallow, and it had been a few years since she had also lost her speech.
I do remember the good things though, the things that make me smile. Like how she would always have smarties for me when I visited, or how she'd take me out into her garden and show me her plants and flowers. We used to go for walks together and when I was little she used to pull me in one of those old red wagons, I remember us always having to clean it out from where it sat under the pine tree. My favorite was how generous she was, always teaching me things or showing me cool things like how to play the organ, or how to plant plants. She always played barbies with me growing up and I remember a bath at grandma's house wasn't a bath unless the tea set was in the bathtub with me.

Growing up the youngest grandchild of 9 was awesome and crappy all at once. I was always spoiled, that was the good part. But the bad part now is the fact that my older cousins have almost all gotten married or had kids and my grandparents got to see that and be there for it. I know it's the poor me attitude but that's just how I feel.

Along the lines of feelings, the amount that hit me once I was told she's gone, is like a tidal wave. Sadness is a big one, also the feeling of wanting to be left alone. Also this shaking that my body is doing can stop at anytime.


RIP Grandma. I will always remember and love you

Brain Dead

So just a little update, I had prac today after a week of school with an exam as well as the doom and gloom of a midterm monday.... on a class that I struggle in.

My day in a nutshell
Mike walks out of the elevator
Me " hey hows it going?"
M "good and you?"
Me "Good and you?".. wait.... shake head, laugh and keep walking into the elevator mike came out of.

My brain is so mush from this week I can't even greet people properly anymore :|

On plus note I got awesome marks on my DSLR from prac today. Even got thrown into running one of my mentors meetings and felt like I rocked it for having no idea what I'm doing. haha