Another day another dollar... wait thats wrong

So one of the things that has been bugging me the most lately (not much mind you) is that fact I am going into debt.. and quite a bit at that :/ . While being in this program I have decided not to work, yes it was a choice I made. Talking to people in class who do work, they tell me it is very hard to balance both, so I choose not to.

Another thing that has been coming in and out of everyday thought is what was I doing at this time last year.

In January of last year I was making preparations and plans to quit my job and move home to Regina. My job at the time wasn't what I was wanting. I wasn't getting along with my supervisor, it kept getting worse and I just couldn't force myself to be in that position anymore. To go to school to take what I'm taking now (Respiratory Therapy), I had to take Chem30. I took the course while working full time, doing night classes. My work was not supportive of me attending class, studying over my lunch and breaks at work was not allowed, so it made it  lot more difficult then it could have been. When clashing with my supervisor I felt like she was continually calling me stupid, it made a massive difference when I was pulling high 80's and 90's in the Chem class. It gave me a mental break to know, that even if she thought I was stupid, I actually wasn't. I started keeping track as of September 2011 and it was averaging that 10 times a month I would get upset to the point of tears, brought on by being frustrated or having rough confrontations with my supervisor. I knew I had to leave and I had decided that I needed sometime to recoup over the summer, especially before going back to school. So I left my job at the end of May... if I remember that correctly. June, July and August were the best months I've had in a while. I hung out with family and friends, spent tons of time on the beach, and at my cabin. I am so glad of the choices I have made up to now.

Remeber to find risks or goal or your dreams and to follow them. I am not saying jump in head first, but think about all your options and what would happen down the paths you can take. It can be well worth the risks.

:)


Photodump!

Doing ECG's takes a lot of reference material for me still

Ryan took me to a Ice Rally to photograph. For some reason these guys made me laugh, being all matchy matchy in their white helmets with microphones.

I'm having to memorize these for a quiz I have tomorrow... it would definitely help if I could even pronounce them :/

Walking to the gym this morning. There was no one around. I thought maybe I had missed a memo or something

My supper tonight. mmhhmm

Another from the Ice Rally

Tried making this.... 'tried' being the key word. I can't read spanish so it was a big fail.... that tasted like crap.

Mhhmm Green Tea, timmies GT is so good

Naso and Oro airways, practice in lab

Stuff needed for intubation

Intubated!

I seem to be having problems making my own green tea at home. The bags and me don't agree. Either the thing falls off or the two part bag splits open. first world problems haha

Average night in my kitchen

Thinkin Positive!

I frequent the site Post Secret and a few months ago a post card was posted that was from a father to a daughter, I forget what it exactly said but it was along the lines of 'When you grow up you will run into tough times, I too have been through those tough times. I want you to do these things for me: Stay active, think of something positive...' and a list of about 9 things. I forget the rest but the whole "Think positive" one really stuck. Every once and a while I get down in the dumps, either home sick or just the world is out to get me. I'm now trying to realize when this is happening and to try and stop it before I wallow in it. I hate to wallow and be bummed out. So eveytime I have some negative thought I counter act it by three positive ones.
Example would be not feeling very confident in my self body image. I would then think of three positive things (sometimes they aren't the nicest but they help me feel a little better then myself) 1) At least i'm not on the one ton woman show on tv 2) i've gone to the gym 6 times this week so I know i'm working on it, maybe I will see results soon 3) I have people that love me for who I am, as I am

some of the other more generic ones i've used are.

• Hey at least I woke up breathing this morning
• People love me
• I am getting an education
• I'm not a starving child in a poor country
• I have a family who cares about me
• I am able bodied
• The sore muscles are a good thing!

So sometimes when I don't catch it right away the more generic ones work, being grateful for what I have and not letting things get me down has really helped with keeping stress levels down. Which is one of the new years resolutions.

Ohh on the topic of new years resolutions, which my gym one has been going dandy (thanks for asking). I saw a few facebook statuses about "Why do people make such a fuse over the new year, it's just another day. blah blah blah" That made me think, 'you must not celebrate your birthday then either, do you?' I think new years resolutions is a good time to set goals. Yes it may not work for everyone, but it is a date when you can tell others what you want to change about yourself. By telling people you are more or less making a promise to do something, by telling that person(s) you are solidifying it as not 'just another thought'.

I wish everyone good luck with their new years resolutions! Remember they may have to grow and change with you/your life as the year goes on. Don't get down on yourself if you have to tweek them a bit.

**note that below there is a not to nice picture, you have been forwarned. It is a little girl giving the finger. I didn't mean to screen cap it but it ended up at the bottom of what I wanted to capture

Through my eyes

If you've read any of my posts from last semester you will probably see that I used to try and do all of my work and study on my bed. Its comfy so I thought why not. Then I realized (and my old roomie, whom I terribly miss pointed out) that maybe it is the cause of my lack of being able to sleep or at least contributing to it. So i've not started to try and do it at the table. Here's hoping!

 

Screen shot from my phone... I found this hilarious

Another screen shot from my phone. This was seriously making me mad. So many nicely done up cars were/are getting stolen. People put there time/effort/soul into their car and for some A-hole to come and take that. Did you not go to kindergarden!!!! if it's not yours then don't f-ing touch it! /rant

Thought the top write up was so funny!

Another one off of BestDem

Explains itself. haha

When I got back to Calgary after xmas it looked like this around here.... until about 12 hours after this picture was taken we got a snow dump.

Random, kind of complicated but really not that bad of a diagram

I made myself a London Fog the other night. I love my one bestie Jess for teaching me how to make them <3

You can see some of my christmas presents being put to use here. Also 3/4 days off class i'm stuck in scrubs this semester :| I guess it's okay because I don't really have to think about what to wear in the morning. But I do prefer my yoga pants over scrub pants.

Ya a lot of selfies, this one showing the blue eyes and the locally made head band I bought at Regina's True Knit art/craft show! Does it make me a bad person that I feel high and mighty/proud that I bought a local made head band. Which is wayyyyy better then my store bought ones btw.

Show from class. Brainstorming ideas... actually I believe my group was off in lala land talking about something else until the teacher started asking the different groups for their ideas. Talk about crunch, we got 'er done though!

Found at the dollar store

omg. Gen and I were walking back to campus when I saw this in a parking lot. At first  was confused by the taillights and Gen thought I was crazy traipsing across the parking lot too take a picture of this thing. For those of you who don't know this is a modified 99-03 Honda Accord (I believe I got the years right, mine was an '01). I used to own a stock looking '01 Accord. I took the picture, walking away shaking my head. Some people and their ideas of cool...

2013!

Okay so I know I disappeared for a while there, finals had me swamped. I literately did nothing but sleep, eat, study then repeat. It was an ugly time but I made it through! Passed all of my classes with A's and B's :D so stoked!! Semester 2 starts sooner then later.

Well I started this post with good intentons but it seems that good writting ideas only come to me at certian times. One place I can rely on is walking into residence... but only entering the building from the west entrance. Don't ask me why but thats where I always get ideas. Tonights came from the shower while jamming out to music.

First things first

First picture of 2012 that I uploaded was

Last picture of 2012

Car for sale in Cancun

First picture of 2013

Our annual spell the years out with shots picture!

I guess now onto the resultions part of things

This year I hope to succeed in/do better at/do at all:
- Be happy with myself/not beat myself up so much
- Overall be nicer to people, I haven't walked in their shoes, I don't have a right to judge them
- Lose weight/get leaner (trying to accomplish this by being happier overall)
- For every negative thing think of three positive things (I started this a little while ago, I'll try and remember to do a blog entry on it)
- Stay on top of school work
- Realize when I'm getting stressed out and fix it before it gets horribly bad
- Be more out going
- Try and keep in contact with friends/family more
- Be happy with who I am and what I have, not to always want want want

Long list I know, I think I'm missing things as well

So since I last wrote I flew home to Regina and then took a family trip with mom, dad, and Chris to Cancun. We got back on Christmas eve, which was quite hectic trying to get everything figured out and sorted out. Plans changed but in the end I got to see some of my friends, a lot of my family as well as spend time with my niece and nephew (Godchildren). I wish it would have been a few more days but I was happy for the time I got.
I am now back to the grind once again at school, it started out with a less then graceful start with one of the teachers expecting us to have a lab activity done for 8am this morning. Not a big deal if you live in Calgary and were able to buy the manual from the book store, but for those of up not here we were more of less hooped. After quite a few emails to the teacher he finally posted it up online and we were able to get it... but not the texts we needed. I ended up guessing, using Google, and using one of the texts I did have. It worked out and I only had to stay up till just after midnight sunday after I got back to rez at 10pm. It made for a long day but it got done.

On to the looooooong photobomb

I made this for Sara for xmas... arent I soooo talented :p

Selfie on the way home from boarding, Chris and I went out and the hill kicked our butts

Later that night, hence the hill kicking our butts. I had a black eye and bruised hip.... the bruise got much much worse

My family being nerds while picking out new frames

Christmas day my dads side of the family got together and were playing minute to win it games. This is my 84 year old grandpa on the floor playing the games with us. I really do look up to him, he may be hard to understand sometimes but when you actually pay attention he is probably cracking a joke or making fun of you. I hope to be as witty as him when I am that old.

I believe my mom did Miss V's hair

I wrote two exams in this gym, the ceiling/air circulating fans are the worst! This is about 1/4 of the whole gym in the picture.

Got me some cuddles with the boyfriend and baby Ethan

Possible new custom shifter boot... if I can find mom material. as well as maybe other plans in the works. Limited budget and space make planning hard :|

I'm an only child...  get spoiled on christmas... it happens

View from sitting on our balcony in Cancun

Took the Godkids out for a toboggan ride. V kept dragging her little mitts in the snow and her hands got cold so Uncle Chris traded her mitts

Both kids!

Found this tonight and had  good laugh. Mom and I were discussing the other day why she puts little pieces on cherry on the cookies (its supposed to be on the white part of the cookie) and she said because my dad likes it like that and that her and I would have to suck it up and pick them off. I pull out my container of baked goods mom packed me and she has already ripped off all the cherry pieces. Thanks mom! Love ya!