Final Countdown

Well this seems more surreal then anything at the moment, I am in final countdown mode till this semester is over. It seems like it has flown by! Some days I think holy crap have I learned anything? Then when I have to do a skill or talk to anyone not in the program I realize I have learnt more then I know. Yesterday was my last day of classes. Today is a partial day off, nothing really planed but to bum around, possibly venture to the gym and probably go over ECG's. I might cave and start doing some readings, I didn't want to, today was supposed to be my "day" off. But I have tentative plan to go to the Zoo Lights on saturday depending on weather so then I feel guilty and feel I should do some today. Monday is High flow testing, they have us in 10 min increments but they said it should take less then 8 mins. Tuesday is the bigger competency/skills assessment. Then written exams the week after. Then home time!!

This past week I got two packages! One from my Aunt and one from my parents, I want to say a big thank you!!! I loved them. Someone could probably send me a box with just a letter in it and i'd love it :D or even just snail mail. I like texts and emails too! But I think it's because no one really gets snail mail anymore besides bills or flyers. I'll post pictures below of the packages below.

When I stopped going to University a while ago I told my parents that if I do school again I need to do it away from home. They scoffed at me, but I want to say "I told you so" :p lol jk but in reality I don't think I could be exceeding at this program nearly as much if I was taking this program back in Sask. I would much rather go out with my friends, play with my niece and nephew, or even work on my car then study and do homework. So I am glad and happy that when I told them I wanted to go to school all the way out here that they were behind me. Between my family and friends everyone has been more then super awesome. I get skype calls all the time, text messages, fb messages, phone calls, and packages. (I am a bridsmaid for one of my bestest friends this summer and I even got to join in on the bridal party making invites and hanging out, via skype <3 ) I have no idea if I could have done this before high speed internet was invented :| Not having skype or email or instant messaging.. okay maybe email but it would have taken me forever to look at one email.
Short story is I want to thank everyone for being so awesome!

So yup, just as it looks. Broke another glass. Slipped out of my hand into the sink :\ 

This is a little old, but thats what my laptop background is of.

The package I got from my Aunt!

This was what was inside! Plus some awesome pens

One of my later night study sessions was reading and understanding this stuff

Package from the parents!!

What was inside! My personal wicked awesome advent calendar! I get to open one box a day starting Dec 1st :D

Childishness

I'm not sure if i'm crazy or if i'm just so burnt out and in need of a brake that this is just how my mind is. But sometimes I feel like my brain is a 2yr old and I have to get stern with it :/ This only really happens when studying, I have to force myself to concentrate. Sometimes it works for a while, then other times my brain has had enough, freaks out and goes into this hyper type mode where the only thing that works to fix it is turning everything off, TV, music, closing the blinds and having a nap or just chilling out. After about 30-45 mins I can study again but loose steam pretty quick. Just me? burnt out? no idea.

Breaks really help, but I find I am ridiculously hard on myself if I take to much of a break I will beat myself up over it. Which really doesn't help since thats just taking more study time up :/ yes I know it doesn't make sense. I am trying to fix it. 

Tomorrow commences the next three weeks of hell. The final hell weeks of this semester I am happy to state. We have exactly 5 days of classes left... crazy I know. I can't believe it yet. I'll let myself wrap my brain around that on the flight home.

Schedule for the next while
Thurs - Patient assessment exam mods 1-7 (last midterm didn't go so well so here's hoping for better)
          - Open lab time
          - Study 212
          - Study 218Friday - Teacher going over stuff at 8am :( (i'm sad about this because we aren't supposed to have school tht day so I had planned on sleeping in... not so much
          - 10am some demo thing for a VIP, I don't know, I volunteered... my biggest reasoning was because I was already going to be at school anyways....
          - Study 212
          - Study 218
Saturday - Tutor
              - Open lab time, trying to nail my patient assessment without forgetting things
              - Study 212
              - Study 218
Sunday - Study

Monday - Anatomy exam
Tuesday - Physics exam (booooooooooo)
             - Probably open lab
Friday - Last day of class
Monday - Final Exam on 218 (nebulizers and such)
Tuesday - Final patient assessment day (nervous as all hell for)
Wens - Last practicum day

Week after is all written finals :| ahhhhhhh scary!!!!!
Then home time for a long while, move a best friend up to one of my favorite cities, take a trip to a warm location :D and relax with family and friends :D yay!!!

Things I've really wanted as of lately

• a nice whole healthy meal cooked for me. I admit to being one of those bachelor type eaters where I snack, random things after school. But I've been craving a whole cooked meal just to lazy/ not wanting to spend time on that :s
• The temperature in my room to stay constant, sometimes it's warm, other times freezing, like bazezzus 
• My right knee to stop hurting me, yes knee, I understand you were angry with me when I went running 4 days in a row. That was over a month ago, I now space the days at least 2 days apart. Stop aggrivating me :(
• Back massages! I get them on campus, (yes they cost money still, unfortunately) but they just switched people and the new person just doesn't do the same good things as the last one. :(
• People around me to stop getting sick. I have no time to be sick, do not give me anything.
• To go home! (soon enough!)

Forgot to thank my Aunt for giving me a care package! It had highlighters, flaggy things, and a bunch of useful things!

Oooo to anyone giving students care packages helpful ideas. Advil!, black pens (no idea why these keep running out), meal card, sticky flags (they work awesome), sticky notes, their favorite snack.... ect

Onto Pictars!

 My failure at making instant oatmeal....  can cook... I swear. 

Just different picture of different things in my agenda

No this isn't a picture of random people or a truck.... its supposed to be of the horse ride. I think Rachel and I might try and get a ride this weekend if they are out. Its just down from SAIT and is free! yay free!

 This has been daunting me lately. I have to memorize all of these, I am down to only a few that I mix up now. yay me!

When running around residence I like to wear flip flops :D.... cept these are broken now :( the toe thingy came out. boooo (just noticed how clean the elevator floor is.... ewww)

Sunday afternoon I went to Lincoln at Chinook... It wasn't really my type of movie :/ Anyways, this was at the mall. I like carousels, especially outside ones.

Lol! studyinf for exams, I had a nap in that little space believe it or not. This is what happens on weekends while trying to study and do homework/labs.

Random picture from class today. These are the types of scenarios we will be working on.

Picture from today, it's cold, and snowing all day. :( I like snow, hate the super cold though

Weight

This can be taken a lot of ways, this blog topic first came to me when I went to buy a few groceries after class and instead of going home to drop off my stuff I went straight to Safeway. In my bag I already had a laptop, and a few books, at Safeway I picked up milk and a a few other things. I swear my back pack weighted over 40 pounds. Now without a scale near I tend to try and weigh things my memory using objects I know the weight of. This time I used the memory of my niece's weight which last I held was just over 30lbs. Its weird but it works most times.

Another way that I thought to go about this is body weight. This is going kind of more personal then normal, but I have thought about this for a few days and well, whatever i'll write it. For the amount of people that actually read this I'm okay with it. Anyways, I have a horrible self body image. 7/10 times I hate the way I look, I try to act confident and such but sometimes I can't and I really let it get to me. When i'm not sick (which unfortunately I am now :( boo) I do try and go to the gym, it makes me feel better and helps me blow off steam. I try and eat on the healthier side, which is why I like to live on my own (no offense mom). I buy healthier things and don't cook with as much butter or fatty things. My mom makes wonderful delicious things but they aren't always the healthiest, but sure are good!

Another way I thought this could go is how I concentrate on how much weight assignments and tests carry. It seems that's whats on my mind ALL the time. How much did that last test count for? How much weight is this assignment for my final mark? What is my final mark going to be? Am I cutting it close or am I okay? 

On to the normal.... PICTURES! everyone loves picture, I love pictures.. these will be pretty random just saying

This is my art project i'm slowly working on...on study breaks :)

Balance board I use at the gym, its super cool

This goes out to a lot of people! <3

My last haul from the on site grocery store. Ground beef, some rib steak things, homemade apple pie, and prime rib

Got tons of cuddles from my nephew and niece this last weekend I went home <3

While back at home I also got to go to the "Our Best To You" craft sale. I saw these lights and thought they were pretty cool

One night a little while ago I was searching kijiji randomly and found these rims that fit my car, they were cheap so I picked them up as spares. I need ideas for paint colors though!?!

So sad I put my car away dirty :( She was clean... then it rained the day I put her away :( This is just a random shot of some of the stickers I have. I have one in my head I need to get printed, just lettering. So far, 306, Redline, DODO, and a Chivette.

Another picture of my Mouse! I hope Derry is still willing to help me get her all one proper color this summer. haha, spray bomb is just temporary... hopefully

Last but not least, homework! I have decided to try and give this a go. These are all the normals I think I have to remember, so I have put them on my white board and I erase them after I guess and get them all right. I hope this works.

Perspective

Perspective of a lot of things has been coming more clear lately. In the last 20 minutes it has more so clicked in that I only have 20 school/class days left. Nov 30th is my last day of classes, the week following is skills exams, then written final exams the week after. We have quite a bit to get through still. :/ Not looking forward to that part of it. The biggest thing is looking back. From the time I have started to now I have learned sooooo much! I didn't think I could cram that much into my brain but it seems I have. My marks are relatively good, I am happy with them :) For me to think I have been in school for 65 days, and I only have 40 days until my flight back home. It seems like i have missed so much back home and that time has flown by while being here. I hate the fact that I miss so much back home, but I know this is for the better of me and the end results will be worth it.

Another perspective that has come clear to me is the fact that my parents are behind me. I can say that I know some students whose parents pushed them in the direction that they wanted them to go. Now my parents aren't entirely free of that guilt considering I was thoroughly persuaded to try business admin right after high school But they didn't hold it against me forever that, that just wasn't for me. When I decided I wanted to do this they were happy and helped me out whenever I need(ed) it.

Dear Parents,
Steer your child in the direct you see that they want to go. Do not pick their path for them, set the information before them and let them choose. If you force them to do what you want it makes their life a living hell. I have a dear friend going through this, it is beyond necessary for them to have this internal battle with themselves. They want to please you so badly that they sometimes don't listen to what they truly want to do. Therefor making themselves unhappy just to make you happy. My best advice is, know your child. Know them as a person, what they like, what they don't, what makes them truly happy and what frustrates them, don't simplify them. Each person is complex, the  more you know them on a personal level instead of just a disciplinary head the more you will be able to help guide them through life.


Well hell week is almost done for me. YAY! Long weekend next weekend. To me that means that it's an extra few days to start prepping my notes for finals. :/ sooo not exciting. Ohh well as stated this semester is almost done!! F ya!

Random picture time

Since I don't get to go out shopping as much as I like, I've resorted to online shopping. Found some killer deals for bathing suit tops and stuff I want for Mexico. Yay!

I won this on Halloween from a presenter we had in class :)

My weekend of flash cards and studying

Lately this is what the weather has been like around here :/

Eerie picture I took coming back from the gym

Random conversation with someone on instagram lead me to sharing one of my favorite/dream house plans. 6 car garage with living quarters on top.

Saw this while walking last night. Calgary Holistic Veterinarian... huh :/

Study breaks today have consisted of this. Making the white mirror into a zebra mirror :D